This is the current book I am now reading for my personal time with the Lord, and it also happens
to be the marriage counseling book that Matt and I are doing before we tie the knot! I have dug deep into this book, there are so many underlined pages and stars next to so many paragraphs! This book is incredible, and I truly believe that going through this book before Matt and I get married will be so helpful when situations and problems arise in our marriage. And under the counsel of a young Godly married couple to give their advice will be so very helpful!
I am learning so much about me, and my role as Matt's wife, and whose life this really is; that our marriage is about reflecting and glorifying Christ. I need to remind myself and remember that when Matt has wronged me, or has done something that maybe I think I could never forgive him for; I need to remember the cross, and what Jesus has done for me there. His faithful forgiveness that He daily showers and gives to me, when I don't deserve it. Time and time again. Yet, after and continuing to forgive me Jesus STILL loves me so much, forgives me, and still will be faithful to me.
I am learning to love Matt everyday as Christ loves me. I continue to try to explain to people just how much I love Matt. I never can put into words just how much I love him, or how much he means to me. I love Matt beyond words, would do absolutely anything for that man. Then I think about this is how Christ is with me. He loves me even more than I love Matt, and even sent His only son to die for me, the sinner that I am, shows His love to me daily, forgives me, and shows mercy to me. Unbelievable.
Showing and extending mercy to Matt in everything. I want to not only apply these things from this book to Matt and our marriage, but to everyone that I come in contact with. I want to overflow with mercy for everyone, show great love to everyone -- love everyone with that love of Jesus. I want to be like Jesus, in my marriage, and in my everyday life. This has been my prayer for so long, and I will try to continue to pray this for me everyday of my life, until He returns for me.
Today is Thanksgiving. Happy Thanksgiving to you all! I hope you are all stuffing yourselves with amazing food, and are surrounded by the ones that you love so much! I decided to jump on the bandwagon and do a blog post about the top 10 things I am thankful for right now. Of course there are way more things that I am thankful for, but for now I have decided to narrow it down to ten.
10. Peanut Butter M&M's. I love them, hands down the best candy.
9. Friends. The Lord has blessed me with so many incredible friends here in Racine, that I love spending time with, like random hang out times, and staying up way to late.
8.My Jobs. I am so blessed to have 2 amazing jobs that I love so, so much, and that are pretty flexible, and I can honestly say that I love going to work.
7. My Future Home. I was so incredibly blessed to visit my future home in GA this past week, and I am so excited about decorating it, and making it home. Matt did such an incredible job picking out a beautiful place to call OUR first home.
6.My Family. Their crazy, their weird. But they are my family and I love em!
5. The Holiday Season. I love the feeling of Christmas coming, the sales, the deals, and the late night store hours so I can shop whenever I feel like it
4. The Cross. The blood shed for me there, the forgiveness, the love. I am truly humbled.
3.Heaven. I am So SO SO excited to go and be with my Savior, to worship and glorify my Savior.
2. Matthew John Stevens. I am excited to soon call him my husband, my partner. He takes such good care of me, He loves me no matter what, he is always looking out for me, and he prays for me daily..I am honored
1.Jesus Christ. I want to be more like Him everyday of my life forever. I want my life to reflect Him in EVERY area. May my life glorify Him.
Happy Thanksgiving.
I just returned from my trip to Grovetown, GA; which will be in just a little less than 4 months will be my new home! It was a wonderful, amazing trip spent with my fiance that I love so very much, and I have come back even more in love with him than I already was. My heart just oozes love for him. I loved him so much before, but I love him a million times more now! I don't even know how thats possible, but I do.
Matt was able to take me around town so I could be at least a little familiar with things in the neighborhood, like the local Wal-Mart, the grocery store, and of course the mall! :) He even took me on base so I could be familiar sort of, with things there, what building he will be working in, and where the commisary and the exchange are. I was excited about moving down there before yet I was still very nervous and anxious about everything. But now that I have been down there and feel a bit better about everything, and seem to be at least a little familiar with stuff. I am very excited. Its a beautiful town, with nice southern folk, everyone so nice, and the weather isn't to bad either :)
Matt did and incredible job picking out a house for us to rent. It is absolutely beautiful. I love it. I am excited to make 562 Lory Lane our new home, and start decorating projects around the house, start cooking and baking for my husband, and eventually have guests and friends over to our home. I am excited to just live a married life with Matt, to be there with him all the time. To support him, love him. and just help him relax when he comes home from work on a stressful day. We were able to spend some really good quality time together. picking out curtains, enjoying meals together, shopping together, taking a walk together, and just enjoying a movie together. It was a wonderful time. I am so excited for what the Lord has in store for us. Only 3 weeks till we can be together again for the holidays! I hope it goes fast!
I thought I should update this blog since it has been awhile since I have updated on whats going on in my life.
Life has been going well, there are days when I wish I could rip all of my hair out, and then there are days when i just float. Part of these days of distress that I think I feel at times, being the fact that I have not seen Matt in almost 7 weeks, makes it hard. There are so many times that I wish he was here to go with me to appointments, help me with things, and just be the one to tell me to relax, even though he does that over the phone, I wish that he was here in person to tell me that, or even just get a great big hug from him at the end of a long day. But I look forward to seeing him in just over a week, when we can finally see each other again, and be us again. There is an end insight for this journey. I do know that. But to be honest, it still stinks, and I think that sometimes it makes it harder, when you are engaged, and we just can't be an engaged couple together. But I look forward to that day of us finally being together forever.
Life continues to go on with work, of both jobs, which will both be ending on the same day in February. On my days off from nannying, I make appointments for the wedding to meet with different vendors and such, which is tons easier when I am not dragging a 3 year old with me. Things are slowly but surely coming together for the wedding, I am so excited to see it all put into place, and for the ball to really start rolling on everything. I do manage to sleep every so often, and do fun things too, outside of wedding stuff. Like this weekend I am going to enjoy some time with some friends at a holiday parade and then just hang out for a bit afterwards. I am looking forward to that.
My personal time with the Lord has been good. I finished my book on Heaven which was incredible. Makes me even more; long to be with my Savior, to be without sin, to be in His presence forever, worshiping Him forever, O what a day that will be, Come Lord Jesus!!! I am now just waiting for my new book to come in that I am gonna be going through for our marriage counseling, and I am looking forward to what I will learn through all of that. My prayer continues to be that I would become more like Jesus, that I would become the wife that He wants me to be, that Matt would lead us in a Christ-like manor, that we would grow together, to serve, love and know Him deeper. Pray that with me too! Happy Tuesday.
